It's all of Nothing

I am late

I am laying here with no intentions of 

what to do

what to think

or what to wear

I thought that I didn't care as much anymore

I was either hiding it for awhile

or I was some sort of liar

You must understand

You have to understand me

I am scared

and I am very fragile

I can only handle but so much

and right now I can handle the fact that it's not me beside you

The doorway may be clear, but I see people rushing

This is no time for me to play with what I can get

This is the time for me to step up and stick out

and get what I came here for;

I've held close for so long.